Day 43 - Knowing
Early in this effort of a daily blog (which is much harder than it seems), I mentioned the concept of clarity. This is related.
Today, I’m grateful to know what I want in life. There are many things, but I’m only going to mention a couple to illustrate what I mean. I’m grateful that I’m able to identify in very clear terms what I want. Some people find themselves at a crossroads not able to decide what they want - what do they want to be when they grow up; what kind of life do they want to lead, what kind of car, house, spouse.... I know what I want, and I’m going for it.
A dear friend told me a couple days ago that he got engaged; his partner proposed in a very traditional manner: on bended knee with a diamond ring. I was thrilled for him, and deep down, a little jealous, too. I was telling another friend yesterday about the news, and I told him this is how I want to get engaged - a man on bended knee offering me a diamond ring. Later on, I thought about how much I sounded like a total girl. Then I thought, why not? I’ve been the one to propose twice before (both times with disastrous results). It’s my turn to be wooed, to have my love earned. It won’t be one-sided (in either direction). Yes, I know what I want.
I also know what I want to be when I grow up. In fact, I’m grown up, and I’m being what I want to be... now I just have to figure out how to make a living at it.
I’m so glad the ambivalence is gone on the important things. OK, Universe, bring it!